My head hurts. My heart hurts. My feet hurt. This pandemic has not been easy. Not that I have been through more then this one pandemic but I don’t think I expected that this was going to take such a toll on my health and my spirit.

I’ve tried so hard to keep my own spirit up. I’m still trying. I took up new hobbies. I read more than a few books. We’ve isolated ourselves, my husband and me. But you can just throw all that out the window. My job has forced me to spend many hours in the presence of others who may or may not be trying to be safe from the virus. I am not so much scared as I am angry about that one.

I am studying some new subjects. I like that. Not everyone will feel safe with my new knowledge, but that’s OK, I study for me not anyone else. I am also trying to learn excel….yeah, that just sucks so bad. Not that the subject is difficult, I haven’t gotten that far into the course yet…I just cannot sit down and make myself do the work. I’m even paying for this course on my own, not a free class. I don’t like wasting money, yet here I am with a few minutes of free time…writing. Ah well, I’ll blame it on the pandemic.

I am writing on my new computer. I needed this piece of equipment to get serious about my podcast. Did I say that yet? I am going to start recording a podcast. I am not committed yet to a host company for the podcast and now I am scared again. I know that it will cost money so I want to choose wisely.

I bought the microphone and teeny tiny mixer board already….not that I have even opened the boxes yet. But I am starting to get excited about this again. I totally wanted to be on the air by now but in March, when the world shut down, so did I. I am going to record, going to schedule and upload a podcast….I am not sure who will listen to me. I don’t know that anyone wants to hear what I have to say. It doesn’t matter.

The next thing I have to learn is how to marry my blog, my domain, and my podcast together. This is starting to sound like a job….but it is a job I want to do. All of this sounds like a hoot to me. It has for awhile. I don’t know how much longer everyone will have to stay away from each other, but I am tired of sitting around waiting for something to happen…I will happen. Plus, I have conscripted my daughter to help me. (I don’t think she knows it yet.) I ask questions and all of the sudden she is helping me with great suggestions….haha.

For now, I will just keep on keeping on….dreaming, hoping, putting ice on my foot, you know….